A Fresh Start | theghostofsophie's Blog

I haven't been around for a while but that's not by choice. Well not quite. The first Sunday that I didn't write my blog was the 10th of February and that was because I had the best night of my life at an Asking Alexandria concert. I would talk more about it but I'm choosing to make this a fresh start and so not to think about my past at the minute. The point is that having the few weeks away from writing and the events that have happened since then have caused me to change. I have stopped recording vlogs because they just didn't seem right for me and now I'm writing this blog with more consideration about what I'm saying and my point.
I've found out a lot about myself recently. I now have to attend therapy sessions for a problem that I didn't know I had. Basically, I have a problem with anxiety it stops me from doing a lot and I need to sort it. When I was told this by a professional who then referred me to CAMHS I despised the words 'mental health' and 'therapy' because it's something I never thought I would have directed towards me in a serious manner and especially not by someone who's job it was to deal with that kind of issue. So I've had books to read to help me understand and a breathing exercise for the tricky situations. I know now, thanks to a friend, that it's something I can and will overcome no matter what happens or how long it takes.
I'm a different person to what I was before when I was frequently posting on here. I was still honest and everything I said was true but I wasn't taking into account what I was saying and I was being pointless. Now I want to restart my EP life so that I can see how I've changed by keeping my old stories and blogs but making sure my new posts have more meaning and are definitely of better quality. I still want to post on a Sunday being as it's the end of the week and this could be my way of unloading my week to people who aren't going to judge me giving me a fresh start for the week to come. I'm trying to deal with a lot of things (yes I'm aware 'things' is a place-holder but I'm working on it) and hopefully I could write a story for each to help me understand and work on them.