New Years Resolutions | theghostofsophie's Blog

I had to do this blog, there was no way around it. This time last year I would have said I want to lose weight and that would be the end of it. This is what happened every year but now I realise that's both unrealistic and unhealthy. For once I've finally figured out exactly what I want to get out of life. I wouldn't say I've put a lot of thought into it as these are things that I've wanted for a while but for the first time I've wrote them down and looked over them several times to change them. So here they are in no particular order (the order in which I wrote them originally)
1) Finish what I start
This is a huge deal to me because I get sick of starting something and then leaving it halfway through. This applies mainly to four things in particular not just life in general. The first being a lyrics project I started a while ago. I decided I wanted to write out lyrics so that I could look back and remember what I was like at that time. It sounds odd but it means something to me, the only trouble is I've been putting it off and I need to stop doing that. I also have a Wreck This Journal and I'm determined that me and my friend will finish them by the end of next year. The third thing is some art that I've been doing and they're not even for me, I've been asked to do them and I still haven't got around to it which I'm upset about. The people who have asked me to do this have given me as long as it takes but I haven't even looked at it for the past month or two. Finally I'm in the process of writing my second story that I publish on the internet and that is another thing that I want to finish by the end of next year.
2) Do daily vlogs
Even though these vlogs stay private they're cathartic for me and save me from venting to someone who has their own problems. They aren't always negative though and I often talk about what I've enjoyed during my day. The best part is that they help me remember what happened in the week so that I can write about it in my blog on a Sunday.
3) Write my diary everyday
I got to a point a few months back where I was in a routine of writing my diary before I went to sleep, something happened that resulted in me neglecting to do this and it means I've lost records of what I've done on a daily basis. I used to think I had to write pages and pages but now I realise I write about what I care about and what feels important.
4) Use my calendar
This is something else that will probably sound odd but I manage to use my calendar or diary for several months and then I forget they exist and never use them. I always see my mother when she uses her diary and its falling apart and for some reason unknown to me that's something I've always wanted to be able to do.
5) Work as hard as possible at school
This is probably a given but there's so much pressure sometimes I just crumble and think of school as nothing but a punishment. I know its not that way and I know I need to get my act together improve my grades and take every opportunity that comes my way. This is what I keep telling myself about applying for Head Girl; it will look great on my CV.
6) Stay healthy
Rather than lose weight I thought this was more appropriate. I'm not overweight but I would like to stay this way and not let myself go and turn into something I hate and don't want to be. I don't want to be one of those people who is so self conscious that it takes over and they become something they're not.
7) Be more selfless
I can be extremely selfish at times and I didn't realise that other people have problems. I'm definitely getting better but I think its just a matter of me shutting up and letting someone else say whatever they want and for me to just listen.
8) Go out more with my mates
We've had this conversation before that our little group of four should really go out more places. Even if its just shopping we need to get out. I have three concerts lined up for next year and I hope to go to more which is yet another thing that involves one of my friends and means we will get out. I know people say things but this is something I'm determined to do something about.
9) Work on my guitar
I've been playing guitar for about six months on and off and I really would like to get better at it. A few days ago I was watching one of my favorite bands music videos and I just sat there watching their guitarists thinking I want to do that. Two of my friends have given me a list that's got way too many songs on it that I will try to learn next year.
10) Stop doing things I regret. Enjoy being alive! Enjoy life. Enjoy every moment!
How do I put this, I have a habit of doing just one thing that immediately after I regret and I want to say no it isn't cutting because I don't mind admitting that. It's something I don't want to admit and so next year I'm determined to stop. The main point of this resolution is that I realised I'm alive. I'm damn lucky to have the life I do even if its not always perfect, its better than some other people's and so I'm planning on enjoying every moment and smiling all through 2013.